Me..

I'm going to tell you what I wish everyone knew about me. Or what you might want to know about me. Am I going to regret this? Probably. Do I need to get over it? Yes. So here's goes nothing.

My name is Lon Chandler Madsen.
My dads name is Lon so I always went by my middle name. 
I have a mom who has more friends at Lone Peak than I do.
A brother who is a thousand times hotter than I'll ever be. (Amethyst Wine can attest to that)

He even plays guitar.

I have two beautiful sisters, who will always be my world. (That's cheesy, but what can I say, they're pretty cool)

Momma on the left, Kaylie in the middle, and Mackenzie on the right.

I have a "kind-of" dad who walked out when I was younger. (I think that's why I went by Chandler)
I have a puppy named alfie and she is the shiz.

Yup...Take it in.

I grew up in Spokane, Washington. One of the most beautiful places on earth.

 
I love chick flicks. 
I love nicholas sparks books. 
My first girlfriend was Hannah Fry. It was kindergarten when I was a lot cuter. then she got hotter and I got "notter" so it didn't last long.

Is this a creepy post?

I like to sing but I'm not very good, but that has never stopped me.
My dance moves are terrifying, and I think that's why no one talked to me at the Senior Dance thing.
When ever I feel sad, I jam to Sigur Ros and watch videos of Soldiers coming home.
I have 8 versions of "I Can't Make You Love Me." I feel like it's the only song that explains my life.

El Oh El @ MyLyfe

I like to think that there's someone who has a bucket list with the item "Kiss Lon Madsen" on it.
My life is a comedy, with a dash of tragedy.
I like to poem and stuff. People say I sound cool, but I'm still trying to find my voice.

I love my life.
I have to remind myself sometimes, but I really do love it.
My best friend doesn't feel like a friend anymore, and it's because of his bae. (#AwkwardCoupleOfTheYear)
I tell people I don't measure my life with followers or retweets, but I totally do.
I third wheel even when it's just two girls and me. (I don't know how that works but yah)
I wish daily that I was as cool as Lamont Williams.
I'm going to miss everyone after graduation, even though I never talked to most of them. It makes me sad.
I was totally bitter that no one kissed me at the Senior Dance. #ThirstyComment (But I'll live)
My mom tells me daily that I need to lose weight, but I love my body so don't count on it.
I know if I'm ever down, I always have my siblings.

I've done every sport but never stuck with one. I still regret it.
I didn't go to my friends farewell cause a girl I liked asked me to hangout. I still hate myself for it.
I love talking to people and learning about them, but I'm always scared to start the conversation.
I think everyone is beautiful. Even my crazy aunt with the weird eye.
I hate that black beauty is dating black micah, not because I'm jealous, but because she's my sister.
This post is getting long so I guess I'll call it good.

If you have anything you want to ask, just comment or something.

"Life is beautiful, as long as it consumes you. When it is rushing through you, destroying you, life is gorgeous, glorious. It’s when you burn a slow fire and save fuel, that life’s not worth having."

                      -D. H. Lawrence

 

A chair gone sad...

 He wrote a letter to you from the bottom of his heart...

...yet it remains unnoticed in his eternal slumber.

“A lot of you cared, just not enough.” 

-Jay Asher

Jesse Parent - "To the Boys Who May One Day Date My Daughter"

Local poet from Salt Lake City, Jesse Parent.

 

"I have been teaching her love all of her life and all I ask is that you continue the lesson."

This poem is simply brilliant. I love the imagery. I love how you can connect to what he is saying. I love how moves from comedy to tragedy to comedy to tragedy. I hope you enjoy this as much as I do.

to the moon and back...

 

 If I could control the beauty of the rock surrounded by stars, I would give it to you in the form of a lock, and I'd be the key.

"Love is space and time measured by the heart." 

-Marcel Proust

Love is space and time measured by the heart.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/space.html#Y6IR5bWTStkVwDBL.9

a letter to my dad...

Dearest Dad,

I write to ask you what happened?

I try to be patient. To understand.

But this knife in my side is starting to take it’s toll.

Vulnerable.

Alone.

Angry.

Trying to understand you is painful.

Yet I still call you my dad, just for that hair of a chance that you’ll come back.

Catch in the yard, model cars, Football games,

Memories washed out by the tears threaded through my veins.

While my heart strings cry the blues.

And I’m tired.

I’m tired of the small talk.

I’m tired of this time bomb beneath my ribs that’s about to burst,

3..

2..

1.. more chance I guess.

I used to look up to you.

I wanna be like daddy when I grow up.

And Sometimes I see myself in you.

It’s looking in a mirror that’s shattered by disappointment.

And I cut myself picking up the pieces.

Buddy Wakefield...

a poem about a pond...

The Pond

I’m tired.
I’m tired of the thoughts I ain’t ever felt,
and the dreams I ain’t ever heard of.
I stare at this blank page as I try
to thread the feelings of my ink stained heart,
and all I can think to write is I’m sorry.
Sorry for the stained-glass memories smashed
by the brick thrown with my own hand.
But I pick up the shards and glue them on this page…
Because I deferred my heart for a reason.
And this Pond.
This pond is the last memory taped on to my eyes
so I can always see you.
It’s when we skipped stones as our hearts skipped beats because
seeing you was the earthquake my heart needed.
And plug my heart into the speakers and it beats on full distortion.
It’s the time you cried and cried, and I hugged and hugged,
but it never felt like enough.
Because no matter what was said, nothing compared to the lullaby
of nothing sang by the ripples that is this pond.
So we just listened. Listened. Listened to the nothingness.
Lub dub. Lub dub. Lub dub…And that was enough.

Now I didn't write this about a pond...
but if you happen to see this,
just remember the walks home and the spot..

space touch...

“Never underestimate the power of dreams and the influence of the human spirit. We are all the same in this notion: The potential for greatness lives within each of us.”

-Wilma Rudolph

Death, don't come knocking...

 Death
noun

1. the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism. Compare brain death.

2. an instance of this: a death in the family; letters published after his death.

3. the state of being dead: to lie still in death.

4. extinction; destruction: It will mean the death of our hopes.

5. manner of dying: a hero's death.  

There's more to death than what dictionary.com considers it to be.

Death is getting pulled over.

Death is forgetting the name of one of your favorite songs.

Death is waking up for school.

Death is not being able to sleep.

Death is the regret you get when you don't talk to "her."

Death is falling on your face while rollerblading.

Death is dropping your phone in water.

Death is cracking your screen.

Death is when your dad walks out.

Death is when your mom blames you.

Death is stubbing your toe.

Death is high school. And middle school. And just about any school.

Death is screwing things up.

Death is being a disappointment.

Death is not being able to think of what to write. (Maybe that's an exaggeration but whatever)

Death is eating sugary stuff with cavities.

Death is the dentist.

Death is trying to hard.

Death is the pacer.

Death is love. Yet I still love it.

Death is fear.

Death is a bad joke.

Death is a bad first date.

Death is when creativity ceases to exist.

A man who won't die for something is not fit to live.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

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A man who won't die for something is not fit to live.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_death.html#WPcKhtDWXtvUl8Jr.99

"A man who won't die for something is not fit to live."
- Martin Luther King, Jr. 


“I don't want to die without any scars.”
  - Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club


“I'm the one that's got to die when it's time for me to die,
so let me live my life the way I want to.”
- Jimi Hendrix - Axis: Bold as Love

First Kiss - Tatia Pllieva

Warning: There's a lot of kissing in this.

There's something beautiful about this video and maybe I'm just a weirdo but I don't care.

Let me know what you think I guess.

Just listen...

something to think about

where's the beauty in fear...

Dear Fear,
          I write to say I hate you. I love you. I write to say thank you for the fun times, and you're a dick for the missed moments. That time I jumped 40 feet into that lake. That time I drove way too fast on the freeway, and got pulled over moments later. The time I stood up to him, and the time I didn't speak to her. The time I went months without talking to dad, and the minutes I sat in front of his door. No I didn't ring the doorbell. Still deciding if I regret it. The time I didn't kiss her or hold her hand All because you showed up disguised as something beautiful like butterflies, when really, you're nothing more than a moth. These memories are of you. I can feel you visit as I write this, And I'm okay with that. I can always count on you friend.
                                                 
                                             With love,
                                                     Samps

P.s. time to move out.

when do i get to take my nap...

I'm tired of trying to impress others.
I'm tired of my mom telling me to lose weight or my sister saying I'm not going anywhere in life.
I'm tired of wearing every face but mine.
I'm tired of this time bomb beneath my ribs that's bout to burst.
I'm tired of the expectations.
I'm tired of high school drama.(OMG LOL)
I'm tired of shaving.
I'm tired of not being able to trust friends, and having to rely on strangers.
I'm tired of waking up from a nap, and feeling like crap because of the nap.
I'm tired of writing for others, instead of myself.
I'm tired of bad drivers.
I'm tired of my cd player not working in my car.
I'm tired of my brother acting like a 4 year old, but getting praised like the perfect son.
I'm tired of my dad. (I thought about elaborating, but i think I'll spare you)
I'm tired of this thing called confidence that we're required to wear around at all times.
I'm tired of being "big boned." And I'm tired of working out.
I'm tired of the itch that I can't reach on my back, but am too scared to ask anyone for help.
I'm tired of teachers. I'm tired of homework. Papers. Crap like that.
I'm tired of image.
I'm tired of my ward. And I'm tired of being forced to go.
I'm tired of being a bounce back.
I'm tired of my migraines, and any other illnesses really.
I'm tired of only writing in lists, but it's the only way I can get my thoughts on paper.

         I'm just really tired.

      "You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the f*** on."  --Tupac Shakur

Risky business...

I told her "goodnight beautiful," and she responded with just a smile.

I didn't know whether to be happy or scared.

I chose to be happy.

Just some favorites...

Mark Twain
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream.

Earl Nightingale
Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don't wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it's at work or with your family. Every minute should be enjoyed and savored.

Steve Jobs
Your time is limited; don't waste it living someone elses' life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living the result of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others opinion drowned your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Alfred D'Souza
For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

Bill Cosby
Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.

Martin Luther King, Jr.
If a man is called to be a street sweeper, he should sweep streets even as Michelangelo painted or Beethoven composed music or Shakespeare wrote poetry. He should sweep streets so well that all the hosts of heaven and earth will pause and say, "Here lived a great street sweeper who did his job well."

We feel down sometimes...

"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope."

                   ~Martin Luther King

Sing like you're dancing for nobody around caring...

Did that title make sense? No.
Do I give a crud? No.
Would a kid care? Hell no.

I miss being a kid.
I miss when it was socially acceptable to crap myself.
I miss when I was allowed to cry with out having my manliness questioned.
I miss when I didn't have to question anything.
I miss not having to care what others think.
I miss when my brain wasn't filled with depressing thoughts.
I miss when I didn't have to wear a mask.
I miss when humor was found in everything. (That never really went away actually)
I miss when friends didn't stab backs, and girls had cooties.
I miss when I didn't have to impress girls. (Not that I do that now)
I miss when I could run buck naked through the neighborhood, and people thought it was cute.
I miss when Courage the Cowardly Dog was the scariest show, and Scooby Doo helped me over come that fear.
I miss when  I could color out of the lines.
I miss when a green monkey and a purple ocean totally made sense on the coloring pages.
I miss getting booboos kissed when I got hurt.
I miss when my parents would help me bare my testimony.
I miss falling asleep on the couch, and waking up in bed.
I miss piggyback rides.
I miss wall ball during recess.
I miss double dutch.
I miss the play-sets at fast food restaurants. (Blasted weight limits)
I miss playing terrible music on the piano, but it still sounding good to everyone.
I miss discovering new scents. New sounds. New feelings.
I miss the tooth fairy.
I miss Santa Clause.
I miss believing in things without needing proof. 
When do we get to be a kid again?

"When I grow up I want to be a little boy." 

            ~Joseph Heller

Why do we do...

"Any Fool Can Know." Albert Einstein

Choosing a topic is tough.
So I thought to myself, "Let's write about how much the choir teacher scares me."
But then I decided to take a more safe approach and write about what I've learned over my long, 17 year run at life.

I have learned that my family comes first.
I have learned that pizza definitely comes second. (That was a joke...maybe)
I have learned that music can fit any situation.
I have learned that the second comma is called an oxford comma.
I have learned that to write poetry, you have to rip your heart out, and put it on the page.
I have learned that being a tight kid isn't everything, and being a nobody can sometimes suck.
I have learned that my mom is always right. Even if she's wrong.
I have learned that you have to find your voice.
I have learned that Nixon pulled a dumb one with Watergate.
I have learned that beauty is in everything, even the weird videos about robots falling in love.
Yes I watched the whole film. And yes I cried. And no I don't care what you think.
I have learned that nothing is more heart wrenching than youtube videos of soldiers coming home.
I have learned that everyone is BEAUTIFUL.
I have learned that Taco Bell gives me heartburn, but I still go there all the time cause it's cheap.
I have learned that girls don't like chest hair. And guys don't like leg hair. (hint hint)
I have learned that Winter is my favorite season, but so is Fall, Summer, and Spring.
I have learned, that you don't need friends, when you have Netflix.
I have learned that doing a pull up sucks, but sitting on the couch doesn't.
I have learned that life is a privilege and we're just borrowing time.
I have learned that girls deserve to be treated like queens.
I have learned that every smile feels good.
I have learned that I love quotes.
I have learned the difference between there, their, and they're.
I have learned that no matter how much I try to act like I don't care, I always will.
I have learned that confidence is everything, but you don't need it if you have abs.
I have learned that I'm scared to write sad things, because I never know what memories will return.
I have learned that no matter how many times I try to talk to you, you'll never notice.
I have learned that break ups are hard.
I have learned that getting a 4.0 is impossible if you like to take naps.
I have learned that the girl across the room that doesn't talk to anyone always needs a friend.

“Life is short, Break the Rules.
Forgive quickly, Kiss SLOWLY.
Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably
And never regret ANYTHING
That makes you smile.” -Mark Twain

it's a quote..get over it.

A terrible excuse for an intro...

About me...
I'm still trying to figure this out for myself.
I guess I'll start with the basics.
I like long walks on the beach, cheesy movies, and music.
I wish I was a tight kid.
However I hope I never become one at the same time.
My mom says I'm cute.
My life is full of adventure. (and by adventure, I mean Netflix)

This blog...
This blog has potential that it will probably never meet.
The things you'll gain from reading:

• A new understanding...of nothing.
• A perspective of the no-one.
• Bad gas.
• A rash under your armpit.
• A love for everything.
• Swag
• Execution for saying swag.

Those are just a couple ideas.

What I'm all about...
I'm going to write about experiences.
I'm going to write about experiencing.
I'm going to write about that trip I never took.
I'm going to talk about the bear I never fought.
I'm going to write about YOU.
I hope I gave you the chills.

                       Please Enjoy